Twenty-five years ago I said “I do”, and with a ring and a promise we began. On that chilly day in early April, I felt as if I loved him more that day than I ever had. I was so happy, or so I told myself. But it was during the third day of our honeymoon that I saw the truth of him and what would eventually evolve into a large part of the reason for separation and divorce. There, I said it–divorce. That dirty little word in many Christian circles. In less than eight months I will not be “Mrs.” anybody and will resume my real name and identity. After 25 years of living in the same home with the same last name, but little else in common, I will not have much to show for the time I put into this tumultuous relationship. And it is through the arduous, painful process of legal separation and divorce that God completely rearranged my life. 

     For almost two years, I have heard the Spirit say that my life was getting ready to change and that I would not recognize it. Well, of course He was right! So much has happened so fast that I have asked to slow down a bit to catch my breath.  I can’t get through and recover from one emotional issue before another rises. Some of these issues are from the deep past and some are more recent. Regardless, they are popping up to be dealt with once and for all, and I’m grateful for God’s love, and grace as I walk out this journey.